Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Seems Like a Life time.

ok so when I first started my blog, I was like ya I can do this no big deal every Sunday night sit down, and write about the happenings of the week.... Well I give my self a Big Fat Fail.......
Here's to trying again!

Last Week:

Monday -  Picked up Vic from Gymnastics, and went home ate dinner. Took Victoria to dance practice. Tuesday - Braden had a combined activity for Mutual and they played dodge ball. (I'm sure he had a blast with that)
I went to school. and study/reviewed for tests on Thursday. After a Long day at work and school I went home to sit my behind on the couch, and watch a movie with the kiddos. We watched Fox and the Hound.... YAY I love watching the same movies with my kids that I loved when I was a kid!
Wednesday - Work, work, and more work. Bought some cute jewelry at a Paparazzi party that Cortney (Victoria's Mother) was hosting that I am excited about.  And fit in some Zumba for a much needed endorphin releasing session.  Then went home and STUDIED like crazy.
Thursday - Victoria had her science fair at school.  She worked really hard on it with Braden, and did the whole thing all by herself.  I feel pretty stupid when it comes that that girly :)  I've never used a sauter before and she was apparently a pro.  I went to school took my two tests which I'm really excited to say I got 100% on both my Medical Terminology test on the Musculoskeletal System, and my General Microbiology class which the test was on 4 different chapters which involved all sorts of tiny microscopic things. PHEW glad thats over.  ( I know if anyone reading this and is an actual real hard core college student, your thinking something like "Wow she has it real hard NOT!"  Well to all of you, your right, I'm super excited over a splash when your playing in the waves.)  Of course another hard core Zumba session.
Friday - Stayed home with the kids. (my favorite day) and cleaned the house etc.  Then it was off to my second week of a new job I started, at an assisted living facility.  I'm loving it already.  I work in a Dementia/Alzheimer's unit, and those old people make me smile :)  Braden had a scout camp out friday night and took Titan with him, so I had the neighbor girl who goes to church every week with us, come watch the Bridget and Bryken.  When I got off work at 9pm Titan was really wanting to come home so I went and picked him up, and realized he was pretty feverish.... So the rest of friday night was spent with him in my bed with = not much sleep.
Saturday: Victoria had a dance competition which I didn't make it to because of Titans fever which had reach 105.8 by the morning.  I took him to that doctor they tested for the influenza virus which came up negative so they sent him home saying he has a virus, we don't know what just watch him close.  So that is what we did.  Learned that my Cousin Britten, who is serving a mission in Sao Paulo, Brazil was in a terrible accident on friday.  He was hit by a bus, which resulted in severe brain trauma.  Britten has always been my twinner,  Our names our really close, our birthdays are totally interchangeable ;)  May 12th is his, May 21 is mine.  And I'm still trying to comprehend him being so hurt.
So grateful for families and eternal life, and the love that the lord has for us all.
Sunday:  Learned that some very good family friends, son was killed in a car accident Saturday night, which was really hard news.  Eventually Titan's fever started to go down, and stay down Sunday night, which was good!

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Desperately waiting for November

I was recommended by my aunt Karen to read the book:  Tiger's Curse.  It took me a very long time to actually heed her advise, because I just didn't really think the title sounding very intriguing.  Well We had a girls weekend in Utah a couple weekends ago, and thats when it happened.  I got on my beloved Ipad used the ibooks App, and bought Tiger's Curse.  But I only read the first few pages while there in Utah because I had many fun things going on around me.  Let me just say it was an extremely eventful weekend!!!  I was thoroughly entertained the whole time!  We did crafts, we ate DELICIOUS food, of which made me gain about 5 - 10 lbs I'm certain.  We visited we each other, sang happy birthday to my grandma who just turned 75. We did Zumba, which was my very first time!  I thoroughly enjoyed it but next time, I'd have to be sure to wear better clothing, ( I was perspiring madly!).  We also watched a couple of movies, well actually I was a little stubborn and decided not to participate in the moving watching because it was late, and the movies I was pretty sure I would fall asleep through.  So when the weekend commenced, and I was finally ready to go home, I laid down at night, and pursued my usual routine of grabbing my Ipad reading my scriptures, and I finished Moroni! YEAH I'm done reading the BOM it took me a few months but it was a great accomplishment, and I feel like my brain grew at least double its size, by obtaining the knowledge within that sacred book.  I am so blessed.  So back to my night I had just finished the BOM, and then I decided I could now start reading a fiction, preferably romantic, exotic, action filled book.  I was cyphering through the books, that I had recently been told were good, but I have to be honest I haven't found too many books Lately that I can really be passionate about reading.  Well I decided to pick up where I left off with the Tiger's Curse knowing that my aunt really did have great taste in books, and she has a passion for reading to match my own.  So I dug into the book.  It was a saturday night, and church was early the next morning so I got through the first chapter, and decided sleeping was now necessary.  Sunday morning when I woke up though the first thing I did was reach for that book.  I could hear Bryken crying in his room, and was just really really hoping Braden would go and take care of him so I could read my book!  as you can imagine, it was a breathe of fresh air, absolutely irresistible!  I was in love from the word Ren, (hahaha) I do find my self a little comical because here I am talking about a book but, I could not put the thing down.  I pried myself away though, realizing that I had really shortened my time of getting myself and four children ready for church.  Braden had been sick that day so I took all four of my kids to church, deciding that is really  where I should be regardless of a sick husband.  So I made it through church nearly unscathed.  I say nearly because I was about ready to run to my bed in tears from just trying so hard to contain my misbehaving children after they had thoroughly embarrassed there unfit mother in sacrament meeting.  I had a singing practice after church, and found myself hurriedly trying to learn the new music for our production of the ten virgins of which I will be playing an UNWISE virgin,  (my reasoning I believe for being picked for this position though is because it will REALLY help people watching to think, about not being like me and turn around there own lives. :)  Actually the lady in charge assured me that it was all random picking, before I assured her that there must have been divine intervention.  
Finally I was home, my kids were napping, and I nestled down into getting past the second chapter of my book.  I was only taken away from reading a couple more times that evening, getting dinner made, and cleaned up and getting kids off and getting for bed with our regular night routines, although I was very half heartedly just trying to rush through it to get back to my book.  I knew I would regret it the next day if I stayed up reading to late because I had to be to work my 8am the next morning but, I could not put the book down until 2:00 am I finished the book, and went to sleep.  Yes I read the entire book in 1 day.  So much for pacing myself and getting more time out of it.  But the next day at work, I could not, I mean not get any work done!  I kept thinking about how I had to read the second book.  Now a little history on this author, she had already self published both books, before a major publishing company wanted to publish for her, so they started over and the second book won't be released again until June 2011.  Well this just would not satisfy my need to continue reading the story.  So I desperately searched the internet for any possible way to read the book, I stumbled on one area were there was a 1 chapter excerpt. I read that hungrily needing more than one measly chapter.  Until there it was a FREE PDF download of the entire 2nd book Tiger's Curse.  I downloaded that puppy as fast at it would go watching the line go across my computer screen unflinching until it was done.  I had done it!  I thought it was a miracle I had found a copy of the 2nd book that doesn't come out until June 2011.  I began immediately reading the book, when I should have been working!!!  I read the first 200 pages in between phone calls, orders, helping customers, and whatever else I could do the bare minimum of.  I emailed the pdf to myself so when I got home that night (after taking the family out to eat for family home evevning at the new "The Great Bambino" restaurant (which is so delicious)) after putting kids to bed and doing our nightly routine, I showered, and leaped into bed and starting greedily reading the pages of the book, this time I did pace myself a little though, and only got through to page 430.  So the next day when I got to work, and I decided I HAD to get working and forget the book, but there is sat on my desktop just taunting me, and daring me to open it up.  Well I at last gave in when I had cleared my desk full of paper work.  I opened it up and began reading again gasping at the suspense, and weeping at all the un-fair things going on in the story!  While being interrupted the whole time, which customers, phone calls, orders, etc.  Finally getting home again i did the same things... dinner, routine, shower, leap in bed to read.  I actually left work with only 50 pages left of the 644 page book, and I was bawling my eyes out with the outcome.  I sat up immediately at about 8:45pm that night, and decided I just had to find the 3rd book, I can't wait until November 2011 when the Tiger's Voyage is released, I search for at least 2 hours looking, and looking for any sign of a pdf file.  but to no Avail ..  and here I sit..... waiting for November to get here....

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Vampire Baby

I have been calling Bryken my little "Edward"  because the first of his top to teeth were not in the middle :)  It was very strange for me.

This is when they say baby's teeth come in together,
Well Brykens teeth have come in a little bit strange !!
He finally got teeth @ 8 - 9 months old in this order:

He has literally gotten 6 teeth in about 2 weeks, and I feel awful because I haven't given him anything!!
No teething tablets, no ora-gel.  But he just seems so content, that I don't do anything for him.  I'm just feeling relieved for his sake, that I don't see anymore trying to come through just yet.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011


My happy boy.

I really couldn't have asked for a better baby!
He goes with me to work everyday and he is so content to be where ever I put him. He's a great sleeper!! Bryken always smiles, At everyone no matter who you are if you look at him he will smile at you!
He's very calm! He never cries! Bryken is simply perfect and I'm so thankful to have him in my life.

Monday, February 28, 2011

Family Trip

Bryce was home this last month, for a couple of weeks.  So we took the Entire family which has not been together for 4 years now; and we went to Island Park!  We had a blast.

The pictures we took out in the freezing cold temperatures in about zero point two seconds so.. I think they turned out just fabulous given the circumstances :)  I'm just glad to have a picture with the 6 members of my little family.

Our extended family is growing!  although I don't really know how much bigger it will get, I do hope to get at least a few more nieces and nephews.

I love my family!  It was so good to be with Bryce.

Choices Determine the outcome.

Life is all about choices!  We each make choices every single day.  Some are more pressing than others, but ultimately they lead to different outcomes.

I have contemplated my choices more carefully lately, mostly because I understand the consequences of my choices affecting other people.
My choices affect others, and in fact many times affect the outcome of others lives!

I am speaking primarily about my children.  As a mother, and as woman, I have a responsibility and a role.  My children are the choices, that have brought me the ABSOLUTE most JOY, I could ever, or would ever experience in life.  My purpose in life, is to give my children, the love, and time that they DESERVE.  I know that the world is full of turmoil, and evil.  Many women, and men are being taken captive by being passive, and having apathy for the ways of the world.

But I just want to say with unbridled passion that I know my role.  I am truly grateful for it.

My children have been placed in my  home, where I need to love them, teach them, and protect them!  spending time with my children is the most important thing that I can do as a mother!

The choices I made in the past were all based in selfishness of what will make ME happy.  As a adolescent, I didn't care wether my choices affected others, because I was very selfish!  I was also very blinded to the truth.  I had not search the scriptures for truth.  I had not applied my life with the true course that it should have taken.

So today I will do better.  I will align my choices with what I know will ultimately bring me the greatest True Joy and happiness.  Which is not of the world.

I feel as though I need to stand up for what I believe.  In our world today, too many women are choosing the way of the world.  It breaks my heart to see the needs of children not being taken into consideration.  I am not perfect and I don't have the capability to be perfect.  I am certainly not the perfect mother either.  My children can attest to that.  But I do care that my choices, affect them.  I also care that they know that I believe in them, and that they are truly what bring me joy.  Of which I could never have known if not for them.

The best choice I have made in my entire life was made recently when I decided to stay home with my children instead of working.  To be able to teach, them and nurture them in my home.  I only wish I had come to this conclusion earlier.  But sooner is better than later.

I hope that I will be able to make better choices in my life, and realize that free agency is a gift, that I should consider each time I make a choice good or bad.